I think I finally understand the reason why I’ve been called “old soul” in the past few months or even years by people around me, my closest friends to be precise.
I found myself enjoying older people’s activities such as sitting in calm or even chaotic environments and then sightseeing people around, enjoying the present moment as I thought this moment should captured with my eyes (even though sometimes I’m still capturing situations with my lenses), telling people what to do done with mothering instinct instead of nurturing (which I’m working on right now), seeing and treating my beloved ones with gifts and foods that I made by myself since I started to see the value also the enjoyment of making something for our beloved ones.
I thought I was made for fast-forward living where everything is in a hurry & made a lot of money. Well, I’m still thinking about how to make a lot of money. Yet, now I’m starting to consider the “value” of the money that I make for my soul and my true purpose for life as well as the environment.
“If this job hurts me and steals all my time with my beloved one but it makes a lot of money, I’m still gonna do it.”
No, I’m no longer thinking about that anymore. If it confiscates my time with my family, my friends, Kibu, all my beloved ones, even my soul; I would rather dig another hole to make some money — even though I have to restart everything from 0.
The time that I spent with myself, is priceless. I reflect, I talk, I ask, I’m feeling my own emotions that I used to ignore. I finally become the person I crave to be because of all the self-work and reflection that I have done to myself. The time I spent with my family, friends, my loved ones; is priceless. I finally understand what makes people stay alert and simply live even when it’s hard. They love people and their surroundings deep and pure enough, to make them stay.
I finally understand love is that powerful. Love indeed wins. Because if you’re not loving them enough, then you’re not gonna stay. I found myself I loved life and my surroundings, so I started to move the mountain little by little.
I start to fully live. I start to fully feel the world. I started to find the value in things that people ignored until their wilted days.
I seize the moment just like how the elders seize their moments and live, just like it might be their last moment. That’s the reason why they start to listen to their own body, their own heart, and take care of themselves in a way that youngsters might not understand — because the younger one thinks that their life is still long enough to persuade while the older one thinks otherwise.
Yeah, I understand the old one. That’s why I’m living just like them and I couldn’t ask for something greater than this.
